In my thinking mood....

At this point he may hate me deeply
And knowing that, my heart keeps sinking
I truly want to make this better
But I know he doesn't want us to stay together
I know that right now he can't stand me at all
But if he leaves me now, the harder I'll fall
I have no more chances, I understand why not
But little does he know that he's all I got...
.........................................
And as we said goodbye...
I felt the last bit of me die inside
He told me he would always be here for me
But those words wouldn't stay instilled in me
My belief is if he's gone, he's gone forever
All because he wanted me to get it together
He wanted me to be happy but the damage is done
There is no happiness in what I let this become
His absence brings me no type of hope
No smiles nor relief, just more reason to mope
Is this how it feels to lose all that you have?
Every good thing goin' is now a thing of the past
Is this how it'll feel each time I wake up?
New day, no change, my whole life is fucked up
If I could, I'd pick up all the pieces in this life
But I'm missing the only pieces that could end this strife.



I wrote this in November. As I wrote this...I was banging Damage by Chris Brown. So even though he might be facing some OD shit, and he might have fucked up, he was still my inspiration...I still listen to his music. I had it as a ringtone...idk what happened to it.

Damage - Chris Brown